im super bored

Now i am 18 years old, and i don't feel any different. my dad says that supposedly a huge amount of responsibility when you turn 18 but i still feel like the same nerdy, goofy kid i always was. I'm really trying to be more independent now that I'm starting at San Francisco state in the fall and lord knows i need money. I'm searching for scholarships so i don't have to pay a back a loan in my life. god, I feel so immature . i pray that my work ethic and my study skills go way up and i get at least 3.0 the first semester then higher GPA. anyways, my mind is all over the place. I'm hoping to get my shit organized and i get higher grades than i did in high school. i need another timbuk2 backpack with a laptop sleeve with cushion and both pairs of Nike running shoes. I'm finally getting my flip video camera this week. anyways that's basically what I'm thinking. i need to get my shit together before school starts

college!!!

As you know, im going to san francisco state in the fall, im super nervous cause i didnt get any grants or any scholarships . all i was eligible for was a subsidized and non- subsidized loans.it sucks really bad, but through out the year im gonna apply for a bunch of scholarships and probably get a job ( one that i dont hate going to everyday)i just hope i have enough time to swim, dance, take a photography class, and all the things i enjoy in life.

im back, with more random thoughts

k i know that i haven't been on here a lot but I've been stressing out lately. after i graduated high school; me, my dad, my auntie , and my cousin went to LA. it was pretty fun we went to Roscoe's chicken and waffles, driving by sunset blvd., went to the Hollywood sign, and drove by rodeo drive. the most important mission was to go to Venice beach. it kinda sucked that it wasn't sunny and it was foggy but it wasn't that cold. i wish i could go back there but not with family. i could visit my friends that are going to UC riverside and chill. IDK im super broke i need to get a job.